So what can i say abotu this past week? well not very much i guess :/ i dont know, just information that has come to my attention made, what was supposed to be one of my funnest weeks ever, to not really feelin it. Ive been kinda down and emo this past week just because i found things out and its like meh affecting my mood, pretty wack. and i learned at church wednesday that WHAT? "DONT LET OTHER PEOPLES ACTIONS AFFECT YOUR ATTITUDE" ive learned that this is WAY easier said then done, i know that ya i joke around with people abotu it, but when it comes down to the serious business i try not to, but it still does and i apologize for ruining the mod or the moment, people just dont understand, and if you dont know, then that either means we dont talk all that much or its about you. so its just gonna take some time i guess to get out of this slump.
This week was supposed to be awesome! since it was scion night and we went to knotts on thursday but i found myself wednesday driving and just wanted to leave covina and go drive somewhere far far away, i guess just the stresses of life finally getting to me, since ive taken this semester WAY too lightly. But this week wasnt a total bust i was able to play with pastor mels band and it was an awesome experience and i got to "study" with genelle at denny's but we just ended up talking the whole time and that was a really fun experience. Then i went to Eunice's hosue and we played rockband, and watched "Another Cinderella Story" CORNY! oh and she made me break the drums for rockband lol by kicking me and making me fall on it! >.<
So another thing i noticed is that today during church at oasisi found myself having a hard time worshiping God. and i realized, that these past few months since ive taken up more responsibilities at church, its been all work. How to make youth better, How to get people involved, how to get people to open, up, making lineups, calling people to play for friday and what not. i dont have as much time to just sit down and bask in God's presence and really feel him you know? i just ask you guys to keep me in your prayers and just hopefully it was a one time thing feelin like that, cuz i honestly felt empty and jealous that everyone around me was passionately worshiping God but i couldnt even when i tried :/
Lastly i wanna say sorry again for the people i made angry this past week, its really hard for me to talk to you people right now jsut cuz everything is hitting me at once and i really dont know what to do anymore, so please bare with me because im afraid if i talk to any of you people, im gonna end up blowing up in your face and just TOTALLY ruining our friendship, if it hasnt already been ruined :/ k peace