Sometimes I really think I'm the last thing on her priority list, really kinda sucks. Oh well just doing this day by day.

Sometimes I really think I'm the last thing on her priority list, really kinda sucks. Oh well just doing this day by day.

During my lunch break

its the 3rd day of my program and im here at lunch in the classroom. IM SO HAPPY IT HAS FINALLY STARTED. but as expected the one person i want to share my day to, i havent talked to since monday. So they have no idea how its been because they are too "busy" haha.

All i got to say is WHATEVERS! If the only time you can talk is when you finish doing anything else important or not (when im already sleeping) then i guess we will just never talk. and eventually break up. i hate the fact that thats whats always on my mind. "are we gonna make it?" "is she gonna change and step up to the plate?" "is she gonna keep her promises?" every one of those questions are a no and i am indifferent to them. its expected from her so i guess this will be my expectation from now on. not to be able to trust the one i love the most. That the one i love is unreliable, immature, and just doesn't want to grow up any time soon. well i guess i should have seen this coming and im gonna have to live with it. either something changes or we break up.

I've done enough changing in this relationship. so meh! we will see how the next few weeks will be.....

New motto

Dont have high expectations for the one you love so u can never be disappointed and hurt by them :D I want to think like this so bad so i can stop feeling the way I've been feeling. So tired of theses stupid games, maybe it is better if we just broke up. You don't want to try and I'm tired of the only one trying, that's a perfect combination for a disaster.....we'll see how the next few days will go.....


I NEED SCHOOL TO START ALREADY!!! SO I HAVE SOMETHING TO DO AND I DONT JUST KEEP THINKING ABOUT THIS CRAP! 1 MORE MONTH PLEASE LET THIS MONTH ASS BY FAST...
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it sucks that....

i just realize that i have a lot of good friends, but i don't have anyone to talk to about how i really feel sometimes, like how much i have been hurting the past few weeks and how much pain and stress its caused, and just when i i try to get over it, she hits me again with stressful things.... it hurts but i've learned to try to deal with it better, BUT it still hurts no matter what. And since you act like there is nothing wrong, then i wont. cuz im tired of trying so lets see how long this takes until it blows up... tic toc, tic toc, tic toc!

PS GENELLE!

HOW OD I POST FROM MY IPHONE! HAHA I FORGOT HOW TO DO THIS!

been too long since i have posted on here!!

Im so excited to start blogging again! haha well ill keep it short, so basically my last few blogs is exactly the way ive been feeling again. with the same person but this time im not really whinning and complaining because i said i wouldnt do that im not gonna be sad. just over it. if you want to make it work then we will, if you dont then this is just a ticking time bomb ready to explode :D k its up to you! Nice and blunt, just how i like it! HAVE A GOOD MEMORIAL DAY WEEKEND EVERYONE!